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i donapos;t have a reason to.
i canapos;t bring myself to.

thereapos;s really nothing actually..
but these days seems pretty... =/
i donapos;t know how to put it.
i just feel..
iapos;m not getting any attention from you..
i mean ..

perhaps you never felt it .

i guess youapos;re the kind..
who likes to have your own freedom and everything..
iapos;m not trying to control you in every way or what.
but i know you hadnapos;t had enough sleep these hols.. All iapos;m asking from you is to sleep early..
times when you get so obsessed with your game..
i find it so hard to talk to you..

iapos;m just upset the way how you react at times..
it makes me feel ..
i donapos;t really need to be there..

no.
itapos;s not you.
itapos;s me thatapos;s all

and maybe sometimes..
or perhaps many a times..
you find things that doesnapos;t affect US, so you donapos;t find a need to let me know..
and i just find it so hard to accept that.
to you, it doesnapos;t matters..

maybe because it wonapos;t matters alot if you tell and donapos;t, it wonapos;t affect us in a way or other.

but to me, it means alot.
i just hope to listen to your stuffs and share with you.

maybe you could find someone better to share with.
but i just want to know the least whatapos;s going on around you.

sometimes i just find myself stuck within your boundary,
i tried so hard to be there and understand, for you,
but it always seems almost impossible to.

youapos;ll probably feel so sucky and so upset after reading these.
thatapos;s perhaps the reason i always tried to keep it from you.

donapos;t you get it?
i just donapos;t wanna bombard you with these stuffs,
just right after youapos;ve settle your personal stuffs.
perhaps youapos;re feeling so awful already.

i really donapos;t know how. To, anymore.

youapos;ll never know how every night was, going crazy thinking about your everything.

i know,
iapos;m just asking too much.
you donapos;t have to do anything actually.

and thatapos;s what i always thought,
when just a few months of relationship couldnapos;t be compared to years of ...

i donapos;t know how to put it either.
i just feel so.

lost at everything right now.

believe me,

iapos;m not sick of you,
i donapos;t hate you,
iapos;m not angry with you.

iapos;m just upset with myself for the way iapos;m loving you.

is it so hard to make you understand everything?
is it because iapos;m just so possesive and selfish the way iapos;m loving you?

can i just say..
iapos;m trying really hard,
iapos;m giving my very best,

to make you feel loved.
to make you feel secured.

i donapos;t know if you ever felt.

or was it because iapos;ve done it in a wrong way,
that you probably didnapos;t want it.

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whenever i see you.
i feel so light.

whenever i see that innocent look in you,
i felt everything was going on fine.

whenever i hear you voice,
you kept me going on.

whenever i smell your hair,
i can feel myself getting addicted to you.

whenever we held hands,
i never want to let go.

whenever we hugged,
i wished we could go on like this forever.

whenever you gave a goodbye kiss,
i wanted it to last.

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youapos;ll probably think that i tell this to every girls.
but youapos;re the first one that made me did these.

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are you really happy with everything right now?
if you are, iapos;ll be more than happy loving you like never before.

if you arenapos;t, give me a sign,

for me,
to go away.

i thought we could spend a day out just one more time.
yet it seems almost impossible to, again.

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